Over the last two years, I fallen in love and thought I have fallen in love. This year when I fell in love, I loved the person with every ounce of love I had in me and it wasn’t appreciated. I continued to date this guy on and off because I didn’t want to let go. I didn’t want to lose my best friend of so many years and my first real love, but now I see that by staying with him I was digging a bigger hole for myself. I was so naive and didn’t realize that I shouldn’t have tolerate what I did for so long. I don’t regret it however, because I’ve learned that my best friend wasn’t the right person for me to date or to be close friends with.
For so long I hid my feelings for him while he confessed his feelings to me often. I figured since we had been so close for so long & had been through so much together that I would be treated like a queen. So I begin to date him and I was treated horribly. I cried more than I smiled and one day, I couldn’t handle it anymore.
I wish that things had ended on a better note, but that was nearly impossible considering the way I was treated. It’s been a month since our break up and I still think about him everyday. I wouldn’t say my feelings for him are still there but I wouldn’t say they’re gone. Every day I just remind myself that I shouldn’t have been treated like that and every night I pray for him.
I might not be an expert when it comes to love but I am learning. I just have to be patient because I’m sure that when I find the one who I am meant to fall in love with, it will be special. I have discovered my worth and will never settle for anything less than what I deserve.
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