I Know My Worth.

Over the last two years, I fallen in love and thought I have fallen in love.  This year when I fell in love, I loved the person with every ounce of love I had in me and it wasn’t appreciated.  I continued to date this guy on and off because I didn’t want to let go.  I didn’t want to lose my best friend of so many years and my first real love, but now I see that by staying with him I was digging a bigger hole for myself.  I was so naive and didn’t realize that I shouldn’t have tolerate what I did for so long.  I don’t regret it however, because I’ve learned that my best friend wasn’t the right person for me to date or to be close friends with.

For so long I hid my feelings for him while he confessed his feelings to me often.  I figured since we had been so close for so long & had been through so much together that I would be treated like a queen.  So I begin to date him and I was treated horribly.  I cried more than I smiled and one day, I couldn’t handle it anymore.

I wish that things had ended on a better note, but that was nearly impossible considering the way I was treated.  It’s been a month since our break up and I still think about him everyday.  I wouldn’t say my feelings for him are still there but I wouldn’t say they’re gone.  Every day I just remind myself that I shouldn’t have been treated like that and every night I pray for him.

I might not be an expert when it comes to love but I am learning.  I just have to be patient because I’m sure that when I find the one who I am meant to fall in love with, it will be special. I have discovered my worth and will never settle for anything less than what I deserve.


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Love

Last year I thought I knew what love was.  I thought I was falling in love.  I’m realizing now that wasn’t love.  Love is something that should be taken seriously.  To me, love is putting my all into the relationship. When I fall in love, I want that person to know everything about me, all my flaws and imperfections, and still accept me. I want to see that person being in my future.  I want that person to be my everything; my other half.  I want to make them the happiest person alive and I want them to do the same for me.  I want them to stick around when things get rough. I want them to put in the same amount of effort as I’m putting in, especially when things may not be going so well. I want to be sure that at the end of day you still love me for who am I am, not who you want me to be. To me, that’s love…real love.

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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Right now…

I just want to:
Kiss you,
Be held by you,
Hold your hand,
Watch a movie,
Hear your voice.

Honestly, I just want to be with you..

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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I love him.

My boyfriend and I have been best friends for years and now we’re dating. We haven’t been dating for long time but I really do love him.  He has already told me that he loves me, but I never say it back because I want to say it for the first time in person rather than on the phone, webcam or in a text.  Maybe I will tell him next time I go home..I’m kind of scared. I’ve never said “I love you” to anyone before.

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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My Bestfriend; My other half?

When you love someone, they should bring out the best in you. Why don’t I feel like I do that for you?  You say you love me but you have so many bad habits.  You aren’t willing to give up any of those things or make sacrifices for me.  How do I know you really love me?

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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Love?

When did you realize you were in love with someone for the first time?

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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Opening Up..

Tonight, I’m glad you finally opened up to me.  You told me you still had feelings for me and that you missed me, but the distance is the only thing stopping us from being together.  I wish I could change your mind about that..because I love you…but I can’t..

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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Love Lost.

After all we’ve been through, it’s so hard to be just friends with you…but it’s better than losing you completely..

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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Is it possible to fall in love with someone you’ve never been in a relationship with?

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Time To Call It Quits

If you like me as much as you say you do, why aren’t you putting as much effort into the relationship as I am?  I understand a long distance relationship is hard, but it would be a whole lot easier if the effort was mutual.  I refuse to chase you! Officially done.

(Source: lovelyyyash)


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