I want a boyfriend who will show me how it feels to love and be loved in return. I want to be with someone that will be there for me whenever I need them. I want someone who will make me feel like I’m their princess. Right now, I just feel like I’ll never be good enough for anyone…

When did you realize you were in love with someone for the first time?

(Source: lovelyyyash)

#1 Oct. 5, 2012

I never could bring myself to tell you this..but I think I fell in love with you.  I have never fallen in love with anyone before and I don’t know how you would respond if I ever told you so I thought it would be best to keep my feelings to myself.  

I know I’m in love with you because I know I would be there for through the good and bad.  No matter how difficult the journey, I know I would never give up on you or us.  No matter how many times you’ve hurt me, I would still give you another chance in a heartbeat.  I would never try to hurt you.  The pure thought of losing you makes my heart drop.  I never want to lose you, even if that means only being a friend to you.  Your happiness is all that matters to me.  If being with me is not going to make you happy then I would accept that, which is what I’m trying to do now.

You told me that you were never going anywhere and I believed you.  I believed that you would stay in my life and that we would have been able to make it through any obstacle we faced.  I remember how we would joke around about how we were going to live in a mansion. Haha. I could actually picture myself having a future life with you, maybe not in a mansion but just waking up next to you every morning.

I find myself holding back the tears as I write this letter because I am reminded of all the good times we shared.  You were my best friend. You were the person I thought that would be my other half and I miss you.

I’m not going to give up on us..you will always have a place in my heart.

♡Ashlyn

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Tonight, I’m glad you finally opened up to me.  You told me you still had feelings for me and that you missed me, but the distance is the only thing stopping us from being together.  I wish I could change your mind about that..because I love you…but I can’t..

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After all we’ve been through, it’s so hard to be just friends with you…but it’s better than losing you completely..

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I’ve never cared for someone so much before.  Even when everyone told me to move on and that you weren’t worth it, I continued to try and work things out with you.  I saw something in you that nobody else saw.  I fell hard this time..and I want things to work out between us but I can’t do it alone. I’m so afraid to lose you that it’s driving me insane..and I’m scared to tell you how I feel because I’m unsure of what the outcome might be..

Is this what love is supposed to feel like?

(Source: lovelyyyash)

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Our texts are becoming less often.  You’re forgetting about the important things that mean a lot to me.  I’m becoming your back up plan.  I thought you were different, but you’re proving to me that you’re not different from the other guys I’ve met.  Partying is becoming your top priority and I’m becoming just a memory.  In our case, I guess distance > love…

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